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What I learned on jury duty

I promise to go back to pictures of my darling children, but I couldn't resist one final jury duty post (and I havn't pulled the pics off my camera).

1 - In my state, you may go into any Sam's Club to purchase alcohol without a membership(state law mandated)

2 - Sam's Club frowns on you taking the alcohol without paying for it

3 - If you want to steal this alcohol, it is a bad idea to place the bottles in your coat while in the direct line of vision of an off-duty cop.

4 - Taking the defense of mistaken identity is NOT really going to help you when it involves people wearing less than 2 shoes in an ice storm in the midwest (it wasn't me, it was one of the many other guys running through this parking lot with only one shoe on).

I confess, it was fun, but only because it was OBVIOUS guilt. We wondered why it had gone to trial, and we wondered what we hadn't been told. As luck would have it, I went for a run after the trial concluded, and found the prosecutor and I go to the same gym (we hadn't been 2 hours appart and we recognized each other easily). Now I could ask, and found out my guy had 8 prior convictions and was on probation, which he clearly violated.

Got to love our system.

Stupid Human Tricks (for Tim)

This one is coming to you live from the Champaign County Courthouse where I am corralled with some number of other upstanding citizens awaiting our moment to be the jury of peers to some other poor citizen.

This has been my experience so far.

Recording devices only include cameras.

Cell phones do not include the aircard that I am using to connect to the internet at this moment (at least Sargeant Bob didn't send me back to my car with it, and I am going to go with asking forgiveness rather than permission (It IS after all in the bag they xray).

Despite the gasps of my fellow jurors, I HAVE left the room (the coffee pot was empty and I had to go in search of provisions) that I am starting to call the paddock.

This is a tight ship. One of the guards just came in and started to ask me official questions. He apparently thought I worked here. My fellow jurors thought this was great fun (we don't have much to amuse us), one asked if we could be released for the day, sounds good to me.

This is my fourth morning here. I have not yet seen the inside of a courtroom. There is a guy in this room who has been called three times and has never seen a courtroom.

This is a great system.

I am told is is the sheer force of our presence down here that is causing all the courts to magically resolve themselves. I have never weilded so much power just by the force of my presence.

Oh, how exciting, some of us are being called up! Juror #104 is going in. My big day.

Chick Bits

Overheard at the dinner table:

"Mommy talks."

"Daddy eats."

"Elspeth plays, and Adwen screams."

Hmmmm. . ..

Stupid Moments

I have had more than my share lately.

I have had to explain, approximately 5,692 times that my black eye came from opening a car door into my own eye. My mood about it has not improved with each telling.

I thought I was inspired to clean the house before playing soccer this weekend, reasoning that I would be too tired afterwards, and Mother wouldn't be available to help this week. I pulled a muscle while rushing from scrubbing the tub to scrubbing the sink, and I didn't get to play soccer at all. I feel like a real Einstein explaining why I have a black eye and a limp today.

I guess I should have read my jury summons, then I wouldn't have had to limp back to the car this morning to stow my cell phone in the glove box. They really don't let them in the courthouse anymore.

I accepted this with good nature, but really, when they played the video of Sergeant Bob (or whatever his name is) explaining that we couldn't bring in cell phones because their ability to take pictures or record sound I nearly laughed out loud. This time I was wise enough not to call attention to the fact, that while my cell phone can do neither of those things, the MP3 player I had in my purse was quite capable of recording sound.

I am batting 1000 these days.

Best Friends

Everyone needs a friend you can just throw your arms around when the mood strikes you. Even if it means you both hit the ground laughing.

Daddy's Girl

When I carried Elspeth for 9 wonderful (if slightly nauseating and painful) months, I knew that she and I would never be that close again. I knew that the minute Dr. Taylor delivered her, that I would no longer be all things to my beautiful first born.

I knew that.

I have watched her grow into an independent (sometimes too independent) child with pride, sadness and more than a little apprehension. I am lucky that her father is equally involved in raising our children, and I am lucky to be a firsthand witness to the special bond that Daddy's little girl develops. It is pure sweetness to see her face glow for Daddy, to hear her declare him her "best friend." She wants to be just like Mommy, she wants to be with Daddy, the difference is distinct right now.

The semester is nearly over. Jeremy and I have been counting the days until he doesn't have to kiss us goodbye on Saturday and Sunday afternoons so he can head to the office to get some much needed work done (always more than he can accomplish). I have been feeling sorry for him, not being with our kids, I have been feeling sorry for me, handling home, kids, everything on my own.

I forgot about the impact on Elspeth. She is tough. She has been a good sport, acting like she is happy that we are having another "girls only" day. But the reality is that she misses her best friend.

She finally has had enough, and has put her foot down in the only way she knows how. She wraps herself around his legs at departure. She cries for him, she asks if Mommy can go to the meeting and Daddy stay home tonight.

I knew that I would not always be all things to her, but it breaks my heart to see her need something so greatly, and it is completely out of my power to provide it.

Last night, shortly after Jeremy left for a meeting, Ella threw herself on the floor screaming about Mommy spilling her milk (not true). After a few minutes, I collected the child and deposited her in her room with instructions that she could come out when she was all done crying. I shut the door when I realized she was going to follow me, because Elspeth can not yet open the door to her room (the knob is too loose, so while she can open doors, just not this one).

The level of screaming was scary, and I called Jeremy asking him to beg off from the Joshua Team and come home to his daughter who clearly needed him. He quickly agreed, but he was on the other side of town and had to drop something off at the meeting so it would be awhile.

Meanwhile Ella is screaming "OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW, OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW."

I start to feed Addie, and suddenly Ella appears, having suddenly figured out how to open her door. She grabbed her milk and then returned to her room. Shut the door and resumed:

"OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW, OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW!"

I am not sure when it clicked for her, but a light bulb went off rather suddenly. It got quiet and I heard the door opening and closing as Elspeth explored her new skill. I went back and informed her that Daddy was coming home to be with her. She brightened noticeably at the news and then said, "Mommy, I was screaming and crying. I'm sorry."

She ran down the hall, and was done. We had a few scary moments when Daddy didn't get home immediately, she started to doubt that he was really coming home. We had to call him to confirm at least once, but the glow she had when Daddy was finally seated next to her was beautiful.

I know I can't be all things to my children, I know that not even Jeremy and I together can be all things to them. I know that she will have tougher battles, and that she will sometimes need to find her own way.

But last night, she was Daddy's girl, and that is enough.